sometimes i think i've almost forgotten that feeling... that empty house feeling. that sunshiney feeling.
but it's not so bad, really: there's still the wind in my face, sometimes, and the smell of the rain... and the sun did come back this morning. i saw it glittering through the leaves of the trees when i went out to see the rabbits (they were hiding like secrets in the bushes).
things are just a bit different now. but only a little bit. i'm just more easily distracted than before... and those scary things that I know are coming, those real changes, they don't feel real at all. so that's okay.
i just don't always know what to say here at the moment. but that will probably pass...
i know this surreal feeling; almost as if you don't quite exist. or, maybe, as if nothing else really exists.
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i don't know this feeling. perhaps it has passed for you?
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